Recently, i feel very insecure. Strange to hear from a guy 'Insecure" right? but thats the fact. I donno wat happen to me. Every small thing i also very concern abt her, then i will gt upset when she don listen to mi. i am not bossing around, jus pure concern.



Seriously no one know how i feel now, i got no one to talk to abt my feeling. I am feeling terrible. I feeling real lousy. I don think she noe how i feel too, cos i always try my best to make her happy n keep thing in my heart.

I really love her alot.
I reall treasure her alot..
I really can't live without her...
But now....

I really feel Insecure, Terrible & Lousy......

I am not ignoring you or don't wanna talk to u.

I just feel quite unhappy that i cant meet you for a week.

You are busy with your thing and i can understand.

Just ignore me next time. sorry.

I am feeling weird now.
I can't explain my feeling.
Am i too kapo?
Why must i control her?
Is that out of concern or being possessive?
I think i just hack care let her do whatever she want.
Maybe thats the best way, jus maybe..........

Labels: am i right?

Promise are meant to be broken....
This is a fact...
Rememeber, Never promise people anything which you can't deliver...
Cause you may cause him/her to hurt alot...
Well, after what i experience, yes it really hurt alot...
Even thought i never tell anyone about it...
But a scar had formed and i will never ever trust a promise again...

Labels: Scar for life

This few days i have been thinking alot. I don like my gf to go club. I just hate it. I feel very discomfort whenever she go. I thought most bf wont like their gf go. i am AGAINST it, but the problem is, i really love her alot till i am willing to let her go cos all i wan is her to be happy. As long as she happy can le. I don mind to worry and be unhappy as long as she enjoy and be happy. I know she will behave so i not worry about it just that i think my mind is super traditional, i super cannot take it. I am adopting to this now, cos i jus wan her to be happy. She told me she will never go again, but that day when her friend birthday then she call her go she also go. Even though she ask mi but wat u expect mi to ans back, i jus call her to decide cos i jus cant decide. But truthfully, i am not happy at all. Next time her friend ask her go club again what should i do? I seriously donno what to do, I think what should i do is to just tel her to go and spend another sleepless night. Being with her, she only went twice and i spend 2 sleepless night. Seriously, love is a funny thing. A girl i have been spending my life with for 2 mth can affect mi so much, i guess she is the one for mi. Or should i say, she is definately the one for me.
SO next time, if she wanna go, i should jus gladly accept it. One more sleepless night is nothing. :)

Now i am trying my very best to get use to date my gf. kind of odd saying something like that but i am super not use to it. I don't even know what should i do now. She always think that she also got date mi, but she just donno that i date her much more, n i really cant do tt anymore, getting very unbalance. And i keep telling myself if one day i don date her, will she ever meet mi when i nev push her to date mi?? Maybe we may not see each other for 2 weeks just for this stupid reason. This is getting out of hand, i muz put this to a stop. But i seriously donno wat to do even we have talk this out. I know this is a stupid post but seriously if anyone is in my shoes, they will noe why. Maybe, just maybe, The temptation of meeting mi is not there yet, I mean, maybe without mi meeting her, day just passes by as usual. I am just a bonus if she meet me. I am not saying there she is feelin this way but this is how i feel now, cause the temptation to just have a glance at her for a moment satisfact mi. I am just purely silly saying all this now, cos i noe i cant gt her off my mind for a single min.


She, in less then 2 month, make me fall in love so much.
And she is Roxanne.

Labels: Sweetest drug

每当我想靠近,你总会装冷静

眼看你的表情,仿佛已经说明

我只想要证明,我们这段爱情

也许在你眼里,它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近,也很想要抱紧

会想到那过去,和现在新的你

我还想要参与,你的生活点滴

只要你肯相信,我一定会陪你走下去

只要你再相信

我们会轻轻地靠在一起